Feeling, that is of a Cold

So far, I was so happy I was not caught up with the leaky nose everyone was having these days. But it seems I couldn’t prevent it for long. I am a delayed ‘seasonal viral’ catcher. I delayed fetching my winter wear enough to deserve it I guess.

One thing I am sure about no matter how many comments you get about your voice sounding sweeeeeeT… It is HOORRRRR…………………………………(wait for it)………………………………….IBBLE!!!!

I cannot stand this cold and I am going to Kill IT. No mercy. No sympathy. Like a wicked villain, I am going to eliminate every drop of it with a few small tablets. I will cut short its life by every means possible using least amount of medicines it has got used to in this era!

This is my recovery ideal. But about the cold, it’s like molten cheese at different temperatures flowing through your ‘ENT’ all the time. Sleeping is a hard part when all of this is happening to you. Even the dreams are fluidic! And after a few minutes of sleep you feel like everything is going to be ok for the rest of the night, one has to change their posture to open up one’s nose or to get rid of that heavy feeling of your ear getting blocked.

                And without any doubts, these feelings of cold… I HATE!!!!!!!!!!

Moments with nature

Just during my stroll towards the outside market of the university, I had to operate the ATM in the university ATM branch. It read "Temporary Out of Service'. It was quite frustrating to know that both of the machines in the booth were out of order!

(NOT MY CLICK)

Being a Sunday, you can't expect it to be repaired either. My last hope was the ATM outside the University gate and it rarely works. So I have to buy something and I know I have only 10 minutes to make it with the money. If the ATM is out, purpose of walking out is eliminated at once. But as I walk through a brief green patch with flowers, I see beautiful butterflies around me. Three of them kind of playing with me one by one. Their wings lit by light, there was nothing more beautiful in that moment. The rhythm, beauty and the energy made it for me.

Was I relaxed !!! and still am...

Enjoyment!

 From our busy lives, we look upon the individual aspects of our growth relating them to the development in our character. In India, it is a competition right from when you are born.


In the early years, you are adored with colorful clothes, boys being worn skirts to look cute and girls being given boy cuts for the same. Back then we don't bother about all these stuff. The 'Id' is in work at that time. Before 'ego' builds up, life seems pretty simple. We play like we don't care for anything at all. Going from one person to other, doing mischief with them. Being happy and making others happy the easiest task back then. Say anything and the people are amazed and start laughing for the very reason that you said something. They laugh on any movements your hands make while dancing. Just seeing you enjoy makes them happy. What a wonderful life.


ALAS! It stops soon.


But more than the other reason of the society and other aspects that start coming in our lives at that time, it is we who forget ourselves. And yes, some of us stop enjoying! That is really off the track and not called for. Life is beautiful when you are happy. The others around you feel your vibes and they will be happy even as they see you coming. Your life can be way different if you start being happy. Make pranks about situations, about yourself and construct scenarios of imaginative people in your stories. Never mind if you think your sense of humour is weak. It can always be get strong. Taking small things to your heart will surely ruin your life, no one else's.

So if you loved the way you were as a child and wish that everyone would be the same, you don't want to grow old, let that child always remain alive inside you for ever.

Coffee in Recession

I am a coffee fan.


Recession apart from reducing jobs and kicking out some has done some considerable reduction in the food quantity of the packed foods. I bought the small sachets from a shop and I noticed that the amount of coffee was reduced in the new packs. 


Ouch!!!!


That was bad. They took it to 7gm from 8gm. A 12.5% reduction. That is huge. Why are the profits so important. I am pretty sure the cost at which that pack rolls our is not more than 30 paise. We get that at one rupee to see that the coffee has been reduced !!!


Consumers are being harassed all the time. Its just that, this time it pinched me enough. Who knows next year they might give the same sachet for 1.5 rupees.


Economics surely can make us choose our food. Strange.

Deep thoughts

Beautiful lines by an artist-


"Understanding destroys many of our raptures of childhood but replaces them with other satisfactions. the composer changes but does not lose his enjoyment of music because of having learned the complicated "laws" of harmony and counterpoint.
as adults, we may retain a portion of our childhood innocence of response but it remains our pleasant fate to be able to respond to the world not only with feeling but with understanding and the search for yet more understanding."

Diwali: the essence

   Diwali, from its literal meaning, explains a festival of  'diyas' or lights. The modern context, however is bound to be changed since our streets are no more without street light 'provisions'. And we don't need diyas to welcome Sri Ram. LED torched would do a great job instead.

   People must understand basic things and the motive of making your next generations to follow those customs. They wanted it to remain a legend so that people who do right would have strength and courage to do so. That surely is not the case anymore.

   

   Today, lightening the roads and paths is not the priority. The priority is to enlighten people on their foolish behavior. To abolish those people from religion who do no good to people and instead harass them. The religions are dead now, Justice has to be fought for and initiatives for any good deeds are not dared for.

    Instead of lighting a 'diya' or candle, help someone to enlighten their lives. There are many for whom the system is no good. Help them not burn a candle just for the sake of it.


"Holiness is in right action, and courage on behalf of those who cannot defend themselves. "

" When you stand before God, you cannot say, "But I was told by others to do thus," or that virtue was not convenient at the time."


- Kingdom of Heaven

Happy Diwali to all.

May a live a prosperous and 'lightening' life...

Exploring Yourself!

Can you define happiness please?  I can’t. But I know how one can stay happie!

(After 4 days)

I thought people might want to respond to this question. But it’s on FB they will, not here.

The pyramid of everything in life as it piles up and reaches to the level of making you either fall badly or rise to a height you ever dreamt of, composure and self-analysis comes in very handy. When there are those choices that would make or fail my life’s story, I want o be ready and knowing what I want to do. It is highly important that you know what you want to do in life. It could be literally ‘anything’. Believe me, the sweetness of success in what you always wanted to achieve is something that would linger on and on. You must have addressed someone on how crazy he/she is for a particular thing. That is their passion and there’s no substitute for passion. If you don’t have the passion, working hard seems to be a waste of time, mind keeps jumping from one cloud to another and studying is a torture.

When you ask yourself for what passion do I have, be brave to accept whatever it is. Don’t judge it. You are being diplomatic in the choices that will affect your life!

Some choice may seem absurd to the people and they might say many things about re evaluating your options and looking for a better outlook of your career. Remember that you are the one who is going to live whatever you choose. You cannot blame anyone saying,” You made me choose… had I chosen this/that, I’d be better off.” Making a choice is no way easy but you have to!

So…Where does this Self-Exploration comes in?

What has happiness to do with all this?

And how does passion links to it?

Self Exploration is simply to know about oneself. And it is fairly easy to figure out what you like/dislike. Simple way of it is try everything! Your mind will keep making the list of things that you liked and those you resented doing. Even small things count. For example, if you need a lot of time for yourself, choosing a career in which you don’t get time, will make you miss those things badly which you were connected to.

All your hobbies that you have are a part of you. You relax through them, learn through them and become better overall. This is one part of happiness about hobbies. I follow them when I am low because sitting idle will surely make me go into depression and sure no one likes that sinking feeling.

I’ve probably written too much about this. Now if I start boring you, you’ll want to kill me 

for this.

I want your opinions on this as well. I’ve not highlighted all the aspects of exploration like – anger, frustration, remorse, excitement and more. Exploring me with all of you would be great.

:)

Live it up!!

CGPA is 6!

             There is a class of students who are carefree to live as they wish and do what they want to do. College’s walls are not any good to bind their aspirations and dreams. My college is not quite what I wished it to be, but it failed to put an end to my dreams. Had I put my mind into studying the solved examples that would come in the exams, I would not be as authentic minded as I am now.

 Same goes for my fellow students of the computer’s branch. Their ideas of hacking are cool to me and they keep thinking about alternate careers. Fed up of the curriculum where nothing ever happens inspite of being free (It’s not that we are free, the lectures are literally read from the book word to word with teachers coming in for the first lecture about the first time they were going to teach and they know nothing).

So we give up studies for our better good as far as those lectures and subjects are concerned. We pass them for sure and we study the nicer ones. If all they test is mugging up of the subjects, there is no use of topping the charts either.

The corrupt ones induce some really wrong concepts in our minds. I have seen people with high CGPAs always referring to past things and technologies. There are no ideas, no originality and no entrepreneurship in them.

Another aspect is the hobbies. We have a lot of them and follow them passionately. The high CGPA people are the ones who earn a lot of money but don’t know what to spend on. Then they see what cool things the 6 pointers did back in college and buy those things. Then they want to learn it. They buy expensive cameras, guitars and cars but not knowing to click a good picture, not knowing how to flow in the rhythm nor to drive responsibly. These are the people who go crazy when they see a lot of money. Having no hobbies, they don’t know what exactly to do so they follow other. That’s c.h.e.a.p.O !

About a 6 pointer, he knows exactly what he’s capable of and knows too well what he/ she doesn’t want to do. They mostly go on to do their own work because they don’t like being bossed over.

Carefree, Live every moment, Know what to do in your life and Passionate; that’s the 6 pointers of Punjabi University for you.

Mastiv: how it all starts

Young, ambitious and craving to make a change-  a bunch of students sat somewhere in a group brainstorming on how to take up things further to make a change to the campus that had been a bore since we had come in. All were fed up of the inactive clubs and of the people who took least interest to make a change.

It is from 2008, the second half of the year when my life’s important decisions were taking the form of reality. Enrolled freshly in the University College in Mechanical Engineering, I was among the last of the students who got admission there. I had migrated from a Govt. college to the University expecting better exposure and environment here. Things didn’t turn out as I expected them to and adding to it, I didn’t really gave into studies in that very semester. Subjects were something whose application I couldn’t relate to anything at all. Unexpected of the University as it was, it was taking my interest away from engineering without me realizing it.

The restlessness from the lazy curriculum was irritating. Waiting for the things to happen but nothing ever happened. Not to mention, the Clubs are just a minimum requirement criteria. They hardly ever do anything useful. Neglected is the only word available for them.

I was not alone though. I had made some new friends and came to know some seniors soon. The restless bunch of ours wanted to get the curriculum alive. Forward in the times, these people are all busy in one or the other clubs, committees and more and I am so proud of us all. Back then, we were new and wanted to be different. Our motive was to be an independent club and more importantly a neutral meeting ground for all the people who wanted to socialize in the college in a professional manner. What we didn’t know was how to go about it and it really cost us with a lot of critics. Anyhow, I would my stand my ground not regarding what happens around. There were differences in the attitude of the people and we didn’t realize it should be made uniform for all. Sharing the same goal in an organization is very important. We named ourselves- Saksham (capable of doing anything). We wanted to be the change. And we wanted to enroll others with us though it didn’t happen. Many of us were talented in some or the other manner in some aspect as is everyone. What made the difference was us taking the initiative. That is what always makes the difference. I feel sorry for the people who plunge themselves in deep thinking wondering what we might be gaining from this. We never gained anything financially, we surely lost some. But no one gets that until they are a part of it.

We all shared one vision- To make a change in the curriculum and the ‘Saksham people’, as we were known brought it in the form of ‘Mastiv’. It was a long struggle before it became possible. I must say we had one of the best seniors here and I really respect them for letting us do what we wanted to do independently. And there are few people without whom these people might never have been what we are today: two geeks- Parth and Shant, our dear Sir- Mr. A and Mr. Y tipping us at times and guiding with the procedures.

Hence the change begun in 2008 and now proudly, we have given the responsibility to our juniors. “Every generation has their chances and they must do what is next for them rather than intervening in the times they don’t belong to.”- my original ;)

After the first step, many more things came along- in Post 2.

Making 'the CV'

To all my dear friends, I was recently required to make my CV as a formality for some site on internet. As it seemed to me earlier to be an easy task to make a CV, this myth was soon shattered at the very moment I started with it. I would like to suggest you all that you should make one now since a CV should be made with a focused mind and a thoughtful language. It took me around 3 days to finalize mine for a decent CV. Sometimes the font sizes were not looking good. Sometimes the text effects didn't look good. Initially I tried to make it stand out with respect to design-it was a mistake. There were basically many things that were not required and I was trying to do.

 So there are few points I would stress upon:

•  Make your CV yourself. It will give you more understanding of how to be brief and to give stress on 'your' strengths. Moreover, it would be easier for you to revise it later on.
•  Carry out enough research on the internet about the layout and the matter that has to be on it.
•  Be very cautious of spelling mistakes and grammar. Ask your friends to proof read it.
•  Take care of the language you are using.
•  Do Not write anything false on it ever!
•  Do take a print out in the end to judge it for yourself at the end.

And the most important one-

•  START Today! You will need the CV all the time for a job opportunity and your training.

Even after keeping all the things in mind, some people are not able to achieve a decent CV at the end. So find some people who can give you advice on it like your seniors, cousins in corporate world, or any other professional people. If you have a good CV, it will induce confidence in you and having it ready would always be a relaxing scenario in the coming time.

Best of luck with it !

P.S.: A detailed information would be extensively and easily available on the internet.

Rail Coach Factory: training : Day 1

This is just 2% of the Area. Its huge!

I have been enthusiastic for my training in Rail Coach Factory that assembles the coaches for the Indian Railways.

My training started today. planned to commute from Batala to Kapurthala. I took an early morning bus and changed for another bus from Subhanpur for Kapurthala. The I boarded another bus from Kapurthala to Sultanpur Lodhi that dropped me at the RCF gate 2.

As I progressed further I got to know it would have been near if I would have got down at the next gate. Whats done was done now. I had to walk some 3 kms to reach my training center and in the way I crossed the main workshop where everything is done!
And it was beautiful. Huge workplace and beautiful structure. I then saw the double decker coaches being manufactured. Absolute eye catcher !

I finally reached through the factory to the training center. Met a junior of mine I had never seen in the college before but he knew me. Strange as it sounds, he told me he has seen me mostly in co-curricular. I now realized, it must have been me.

We were given forms to fill and told to come back by 4 pm. Oooops!
What was i supposed to do till then? Nothing because we could not sit in the library as well.

So i asked the head there to let me go today and I got the excuse which was genuine. So I was off back to home. I got to know the various buses and the routes and the means by which I could commute around there.

Now looking forward to a lecture tomorrow. Then thats where it all starts!

Delhi Trip : IIT Delhi

The New Delhi Trip was supposed to be a very exciting and a kind of life time chance to hear someone like Steve Balmer, CEO, Microsoft at IIT Delhi.

But guess what !
I registered myself online beforehand thinking I'll go there before my college friends do and attend the lecture and meet them later on. Then I canceled my registration because I had to give my brother my bike in Chandigarh. And I was now accompanying my friends to IIT Delhi by bus organized by the school authorities.
But alas! We were late.
We were supposed to be there by 3.15 pm and we reached there by 3.45pm. The faculty accompanying us thought the seats were reserved for our college. Well, how does that make them eligible to be late is a mystery to me. They probably took it for an event of the University I guess.

I was frustrated. I was so very looking forward to the lecture. Being so irresponsible is a unique case I have seen in the University system and it irks at every step and exists in every department.

What I learnt was never ever to depend on these guys. Disappointing and a waste of time in a bad way!

The Indian Pole

The Indian Pole is in fact, legendary!

Much depends on this pole in our country. From the extreme south point of the nation to the top in the Himalayas, they serve us with the electricity supply. The extensive role of it in the railways can be seen clearly once you step in at any railway station. Some of the railway stations have opted for better versions of a pole that are more durable and tough, taller than their predecessors. The Railways have ample supply of iron and they used it well for supporting their infrastructure. The rail lines supplied to the railways were used extensively for supporting the electricity lines in and around the station and it can still be seen at some places. The sheds were supported by them as well. How many people travel everyday through trains is just an estimate! The number is huge. And with the rising fuel prices, the number is increasing like never before. The nation depends on it in various ways. There are some particular types like those big ones in plain areas that transmit over long distances. These are huge ones and the tallest.

These are subjected to some harsh treatment on daily basis. First of all, the dogs love them; for marking their boundary. I’m not clear as to why they’re so excited to mark on the poles than anything else. Give it a search!

Then the poles are erected in the middle of the road to divert traffic and sometimes to obstruct the traffic on the dividers. The dividers ones really have to play on their lives out there. Some erratic driver might put him out of service for good and himself as well.

Had the Railways not opted for better options, one would have seen rail lines below, on the sides and above them supporting various structures.

They carry some of the most complex electric circuits in the streets. The only way to solve them is to cut them. So many wires on it and if a single one goes bare-naked, imagine what the pole has to suffer.

Despite all the sufferings and molestation by of a pole by many, it stands up and rules the views of the liveliest Indian markets. The next time you see a pole, at least don’t piss on it; salt water being good conductor of electricity ;).

Indian Driving

For the people who can manage to get their driving licenses at 15 or 16 yrs or maybe even earlier than that, it is no big issue to have problems in their driving sense.

Who Cares: Signs are Greek to most people on road!

When you go to apply the driving license, you are 'asked'- if you would like to give a test to the Motor Inspector or not. 
And if you are reluctant to give the test, you can get your license by paying some extra bucks. No way someone would have any idea of the rules.

So Rules hardly matter to the Indian Government officials at lower levels. That is very well observed from how people drive in most of the cities. Some general rules that people have made- 
>> Wrong way is just another route and the other people are okay with it.
>> Indicators are less effective than hands.
>> Pushing horn can-
. Eliminate the traffic.
. Start the engine of the person in front.
. Can change the signal from RED to GREEN.
>> The person coming from the other direction has no problem with high beam.
>> It is convenient to block the wrong side on the rail crossing.

These are just some assumptions that people make while driving in India. The skills of the people are not bad. Mostly people in metropolitan cities drive better. They develop patience and ignore small issues. People in Delhi won't mind a small touch with the nearby car but in Amritsar, the people would be out fighting over it.


I have heard from my Uncle how his friend reacted who was from England. They were driving usually on a highway road. And the person sitting along was amazed and startled at the sight of a truck coming from the wrong side while my uncle was relaxed about it. I've read same kind of article in Autocar India some years back from the editor himself. It tells us how ignorant we are and how fine are the driving skills of the normal people are.


Next time you are on road while driving, do keep an eye for people who might be coming from the wrong side while driving, because "It is good to check the side before you cross the road, but it is wise to look on both the sides anyway."

The Jansewa Express: A Spectacle at any Station

This is from my trip to back home from the University for the summer break. And I was waiting there for my train- Shaan-E- Punjab. It was 20 minutes late. I have boarded train from Rajpura many times. And mostly it’s in the evening. I mostly get to see the Jansewa Express at that time. And when I hear it coming from the announcer, I find a place that is airy. I love travelling by rail. The travelling time is surely lesser, more comfortable than bus and cheaper, and at the same time entertaining seeing so many different people around. But this train: Jansewa Express is quite a spectacle to see.

The train travels from Amritsar to Saharsa through Saharanpur which also means that it does not pass through Delhi. The route ends in Uttar Pradesh. The story of the people is like going to a foreign country to earn. These people from Bihar and Uttar Pradesh come to Punjab for better jobs and they do work real hard. This is not enough to get them a reserved seat. They prefer to go on a normal ticket which is around 70% of the normal ticket and half of a sleeper berth. But what one wonders is how do they manage to travel so much on a single go without proper place to sleep? It is simply 'will'.

I get to see this train usually while waiting for my train. This time it was in morning. I would normally have left by that time if my train was not late. Apart from the train being so unhygienic, smelling of sweat and urinals, it is in the way people board that train that is serious and amusing at the same time. There are no reservation seats in this train. Everyone can sit in this train. There might not be any check in this train either and I doubt if they even clean it.

(not my click)

About the people boarding the train, they belong to poor class. The train is their lifeline and a cheap means to go home. There can’t be any means at this price and at the same speed. All the boogies are of the general type.  The train is almost always packed with people standing on one foot over each other. Adding to the misery, they are all sweating in 35 degrees temperature without proper clothes on. Most of them are just wearing vests most of the time. Now you can imagine how they manage to continue like that for a whole journey through the night. They have to sleep but I can’t imagine how!

And now is what I saw on the station- boarding of the train. The people are so crazy to get on it that they want to cling to it by any means. I am sure if ‘Fevicol’ was strong enough, they would have pasted themselves on it. They don’t mind hanging outside nor do they mind entering in the latrines through the toilet windows. They have just one aim- To get in at any cost.  Had the route not been electrified, they would surely have got on top of the train. So if people are all over the place, how do they ever manage to piss when there’s an urge. People are already in the toilets due to shortage of space. Maybe they do it in their presence. But then what about the women?

There’s only one way to know and I’d never like to know how they manage ‘everything’ because that means one has to travel in it and that surely is a bad option. Well, anyhow you can surely board that train from the same station at 10.50 am. and see the new kind of people and how they live in completely different circumstances.

Like a Program

public class LIFE()

{

 public static void main(String[] args)

  {

   new object(confusion)

...

...

Living each day is a routine. That routine has sub routines like a program or a code of java. Sometimes inbuilt functions would suffice to carry out the required tasks while at other times, you might need to build another user defined function of your own for a unique task that is limited to you. In a scenario, it is not mandatory that the logic upon which you’re building the program will work the way it should be. You might have problem in your algorithms or Functions. Various classes might not have been linked correctly. But there’s a certainty that gradually, you will make the code work error free in the way you want it to be. That is not so in life!

That is simply because we cannot be programmed for ever. We have our independent minds and they work on their own logics. Other people can only manipulate you which you can undo according to your wish. Dealing with other human-beings is one of the most unique and important part of our lives. I have felt bad at times from people whom I don’t even know so well. “Their school of thought differs from mine”, I thought. But human mind is not simple. It would take years to process the information of how mind interprets. We only have theories about our psyche. And those theories are pertaining to the action of psyche for usual things that someone has observed over the years. There’s no theory to know the exact result of how someone will respond in a unique situation. That’s the complexity of the human mind that I love. So now I have learnt to respect how others think. And understanding them, I have come to accept listening first and then sharing about my thoughts.

So I am trying to run a dynamic program here. After all, we are intelligent beings. So far it works well and is giving the desired results. More than any others, I have usually ended up making up syntax errors more than any other error. 

...

...

}

}

}

I am late for posting the second part <-- I know this. My apologies to all my fans :p 


I must mention the people who wished me at a pretty unusual time. I was just done with my previous blog entry when Kevin calls (around 3.30) and wishes me B'day. I was so sleepy at that time. Then calls Himanshi. She is completely asleep just knowing that she has to wish me. So she wishes me and asks me if I got the treatment. So I narrate the story to her. And she asks me- " Niche so rha h kya.. thandd bht h, andar chale ja... " (Are you sleeping on the floor, its too cold outside so go to your room). This left me stunned! And then asks if I'm still outside. I was pretty sure she was missing half the things I was telling her. So I told her to sleep and that I'll meet her tomorrow. 


7.00 am
 So the birthday was not over yet. The morning came to knock at my door and I left my bed to answer it. I started my day with a morning walk. Its always refreshing especially in the University. I got up and took my camera. Today I didn't found any awesome shots but I was enjoying my walk. It was cool outside and I was walking slowly, breathing the air heavily expecting more of the freshness to settle inside. By the way, I was in a positive energy that day. I had decided to be excited all day about the things to come. After coming back from the walk, I had to call up my uncle(Fufarhji). I called up Virji to get uncle's number. He was still asleep. First he wished me and then gave me the number. I called him up right away. I was talking to him after quite a while. I wished him and then he wished me back. This is a day when we can say to each other -'same to you'. Then he told me something i'll always have in my mind. He told me- " Don't try to be a big man, try to be a good man." I suddenly felt so happy in a way I can't express. Soon the line cut. Then I got Masiji's call followed by Mom's. What a co incidence. Both sisters calling at the same time!


 9.45 am
I reach the college late. I had no lecture in the first slot that day so I was getting ready very slowly- had a nice bath, a full breakfast and then clothed up. I was being asked where I was all this time by my friends and especially idiot(niharika) and lays(himanshi). So the things to come first are wishes accompanied by -Birthday Bumps! No one likes them and nor do I. The amount of love and affection knitted in them is just unimaginable and so is the pain. So my first Birthday Bumps of the morning are given to me on the 5th floor. Am tossed up near to the ceiling and then hit with some heavy shoes on my bums as I come down. I wonder if they're called B'day Bumps or B'day Bums. The later is the result. So I met everyone there and all wished me a great day. I was special that day ;) Aman and Himanshi regretted that they had missed the B'day Bumps.




There were just two lectures to attend and then I was free. So sitting in the class, I realized that I'm going to be treated yet again. O ow!
I try to save myself but in vain. B'day Bumps again. And I have better B'day bums by now!
Soon the classes are done and I feel like partying so I ask my friends to plan for one. We were three people giving the party together. Nitika, whose party was pending and Niharka, whose B'day was the next day. In the meantime I am called up to 4th floor by HRA- Himanshi, Rishi and Aman.


And am in for a B'day surprise. I'm captured live on the camera from my entry in the room to reaching the gift- wow. It was meant to be dramatic. So in it I find - a packed and pinned 'laddo' box and a blue wrapped up gift. I had no clue what it contained and so I started opening it. It was taped well. A little more struggle and I see that it contains nothing else but 'laddos'. I have a weird expression while all others are observing me. "Don't you like laddos?", Himanshi asks.
"I do yaar". Thats all I say when they start putting those laddos in my mouth and I was supposed to gulp all of it in one go according to them. It didn't happened. Laddos were good though. Then came another gift which was... can't be elaborated more. Just when I was finished with my gifts, Himanshi told me to go to the last bench.
" wowww ". Glimpse of a CCD, and now Barista bag certainly made me very excited. And what was in it made me sooo happy. I got an Arabica coffee powder with an expresso maker. My life was done. Now I could go and stay alone with these two things until I needed more. hmmm..


Then comes the party time where I am made to do the pole dance again and two other dares for Nitika and Niharika to dance with someone. Not to be omitted that the boys were scared who danced with them. Lol. I was given the B'day Bumps again. I now had super B'day bums I guess.


Niharika had most of the cake on her face while I had lesser than her. It happens every year. And she complains about it each time. I get my gifts when we were about to leave. I get a diary and a Tie. Loved it. I was expecting a tie already.


Then we are back to the University soon. Then the day was over for most. It had been good. I had lived it up. And I now had the responsibility of being a good man as I turn 21.


Thanks to all my friends. Love you all.

Feb 6teen

I'm out of the new hostel and been walking for the last 10 minutes. The first hours of my day, i wanted to spend with myself. I knew my friends are not going to let me do that so I had to escape for a while. I just wanted to relax, have a small journey of thoughts about what I have lived so far.
So I walked on till i reached the University playground. There was no one there at that time. The place was almost dark since there were no lights inside the ground. There was enough light to know what was under my feet. I kept my bag near the basketball court and began walking from one spot to another in the ground just talking with myself, looking at the shinning moon that i thought might help my friends in finding me as well and the few stars that i could see in the cloudy weather.
It was still 5 minutes to go. I saw their bikes going in the direction of my hostel. I knew they won't be able to spot me here. But I wanted them to wait for some more time. My first call came. Its Idiot (Niharika:best friend). I knew she'll call early. Then i could hear her planning to wish me together (whispering in excitement). She didn't like it that i had heard but I was not the one to be blamed. Then I got plenty of wishes in one go. Veronica had to woken up as far as I can guess. she must be sound asleep. Nitika, Shruti, Saloni, Shuchi, Navneet, Mehak.. all wish me. I can see other people calling me. Its all traffic time for a while. In meantime, my friends who are sitting in my room by now and bothering my room mate are getting impatient. Believe me, that would be the last thing I'd have wanted to do-annoy them. But I was enjoying it [am so wicked ;) ].
In between I am also getting messages wishing me a great day ahead. I really hope so. I'm now getting calls from them who are literally cursing me now. They wanted to know where am I? I finally told them where I was. They came, had a look around, and went back. They looked in the wrong directions. Their fault!
So I had to call them again in 5 minutes to tell them exactly where I was. And then they got hold of me. I had to run a few meters so that their grudge of keeping them to wait would lessen. Gaurav and Sachin were the ones who ran as if they're running a race. I haven't seen them run faster than that ever before. And with their relatively huge size, I wouldn't take chance with that kind of a momentum to knock me over so I had to run.
"The more you make us run, the harder you gonna get beaten up", Gaurav shouts at me.
"Stop!", adds Sachin. There were some sweet words that I'm missing here. They were too sweet ;)
I had flowers in my hands from idiot and sachin by now and two people holding me from my neck.


Soon after, I gave up. Phone calls were done. I had got 40 minutes for myself. That was enough.
The others also arrived by now. I could see their silhouettes from where I was standing and couldn't tell who all were there until all of them one by one greeted me with some sweet words (again) to make them run for me. Ankur, Nitin R, Varun, Soni, Mayank were there to give me The B'day treatment.
First thing I got was pastries on my face. They said the pastries were two days old from their hostel. YUKS!
I was all covered with it and some part of my jacket too. I was clicked enthusiastically in that beautiful cream. I didn't tasted it- was not meant to be. I tried my best that it shouldn't get into my mouth, nose or eyes. Then I was taken to my room directly and I saw the collage that had been made for me. It was from all of my friends. Even my school friend's wishes were written in it. Love you all for it ! :D
I went to wash my face. Later I got calls from Ishan and Adi who were taken care of by the others with more of sweet words. We prepared to go for 'paronthas' so we left on bikes. Had some interesting discussions there :p.


So far, it has been great. And am looking forward to the sunrise and the rest of the day.


By the way it's my birthday, if you still didn't get it!


I share it with my Fufarhji (my uncle)
and its my Tayaji n Tayiji (uncle n aunt) anniversary 25th this time.
and also my chacha n chachi 's anniversary.


Family Day Today :D


part 1 over ---x--x---

Expectations

As of now, am in college. Being in a University, I get to meet a lot of people. Networking is something that exists here. And thats very obvious that one can have multiple groups that one works with, stays with and many more. You have those friends that are close to you with whom you share almost everything about your life and there are people with whom you are colleagues in a club or community. At every level, there's a different level of personal attention and differences in motives of being in that group.

You spend with your friends to take all your negativity out. They can say whatever they want. Its doesn't pinch you. While with the others, there's a limitation. They would stay out of your personal circle and even you'll try that they do. Too many people in the personal circle are not okay with any person.

But with all the people around you, you are bound with expectations. Living a free life is difficult here. Even though we are a free democratic country, people are bound. In our first stage of development that is school, we are bound by our parent's and teacher's expectations. Then as we move on onto our path, more of the people are added in the 'expectees' list of our life's people directory. As we move on to University/College, we begin to see that an entire nation expects from us. Most of us fail to cater to that extent, but still wherever we work, we get to know some more people who really expect from you and they'll pay you for fulfilling those expectations. Some pay for work and give bonus for fulfilling those expectations, some just get a certificate of Appreciation, and the rest a 'good work' compliment. Well, these are small magnitude emotions.

The most difficult ones are the personal ones. Because unfulfilled expectations in personal relations leads to some difficult complexities. One is unable to overcome such complexities because these keep budging your mind and don't let you come out of it. The result is never directly associated to expectations. So its hard to do the reverse algorithm for most people to know that this was the cause. We've seen increasing number of divorces, nucleated families, more liberal teens, change of friend's group to mention the few.

If you can overcome your expectations, see the other person as an individual and respect their individuality, there never would have been a requirement to get parted from loved ones and you can enjoy every moment with them all your life. Expectation is the sole reason that could throw them out of your life. Having expectations is natural, but when you love someone, you accept them. And when acceptance is there, there is no place for expectations. 

Morning Walk

I could finally get up and move out of the bed. I had sacrificed late night 'paronthas' so that i could wake up early. Anyway, i woke up by 7- not really early. But the sun had not come up. That meant I could still have some nice shots-yes I got up for photography. 
Last night it was raining so the weather would be really awesome in the morning, i had thought last night. But by the morning, the clouds had cleared away to give way for clear sky with which came fog. All my mindset had to change at the moment i saw fog. That was actually the first thing I noticed after waking up, walking barefoot out of the door. 


I thought it will be fun to have some winter shots. But even the fog was thinning now. So I hurried. Grabbed the camera and walked out. The University in the morning is one of the most beautiful of the places I have yet seen. In the day time, its ruined by heavy number of vehicles. So I could now stop anywhere in the road and click anything with no 'he's crazy' or 'what is so exclusive' that he's clicking looks. They can't see what I can and thats what amazes them in photographs clicked by others. So I was free!


But in the end I found my shots. Birds, dogs, frozen ice on flowers, dew drops shinning on benches and spider webs as the sun comes out. Everything was so refreshing that it still has a clear picture in my mind.


Now I must go get ready for college.

Publish Post

Cheers to life !

Beginning my b.l.o.g.

Tired of hearing blogging. What made it worse was that I was not yet doing it and I don't know how to make it look great. So I thought putting my first post would be the best thing I would do since the last three months I activated this blog. The main reason was that I was not satisfied with the Design and I still need to work on it. So a makeover in future will always be on the cards!


Now that I am hooked to the new trend, I feel like I'm doing something cool. It is not so cool, I know!
Bill Gates is cool. The person whose idea am using is cool. I couldn't find his name. Please do tell me if you know!


So here we are in a world full of softwares that help automate machines everywhere. They'll keep inventing until we reach the point where coffee will be made in a blink of an eye. (I like coffee so..)  But i must admit, I won't like to skip the pre beating of coffee in warm water with sugar or trying to get a nice filtered one with coffee powder.


So, I do have started off with my blog, but I've told myself not to get addicted.
I'm very notorious when it comes to me telling myself to behave!


So keep looking for more from me. 


Cheers to life !