the romantic tales

Deciding to tell her finally..

I wish to be with you for the better part of my life and although I have no idea if you have anyone in your life or not, I want to know if there is / can be a possibility for us to have that one time trip of life that I can cherish even after I leave this body ...

 then deleted before he could press SEND


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She sat on the table next to him everyday. The teachers used to teach but he was thinking of a subject sitting perpendicular to him. It felt nice to be back to that class and sitting on that next desk. Just as he got up, he saw a name among many written, almost faded now.. It was his.



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How it made me feel is still a question that I cannot answer nor give anymore thoughts to. Thats an excitement to be. The look and the talks that I shared were something I wanted desperately. Its wasn't her beauty or her physical charm but the talks...

The Day I met God!

Travelling in the midst of nowhere and trying to find truth, I was on my way with an old man in a village flying around. I was looking for a particular shrine. And my only sole reason to go there was to meet God. I have been here for 10 years now and the time which we calculated for the event to take place is just around the corner. All this time many of us have been at different places where we thought of the event to occur. We’ve named it ‘Truth’. Interpretation of a worm hole to open up at various points on Earth is what we are chasing. How to respond to it has been decided as well… Who so ever gets the chance, goes in.

                The time has come. I look upon the ancestor. He talks about his spiritual experience with me. I have seen him growing old; years of my life occupied with this mission. Its expected to open for 15 minutes, a path that we don’t know about and can’t calculate anything about it. The equipment are in place to trigger the location as soon as it appears. No one else on Earth knows about it except the few people who’ve been in on it. I wanted to be a traveler to the planets when I was a teen. Everyone registered for it but I came across a different fate.

                It became pitch dark all of a sudden. The old man… was not there nor anything else of the place I was standing at. My clothes were gone. There was no air, but there was something else from which I was still breathing. It was some fluid. Then it became all dark. After a month or so I could feel something building on me. Further as the time passed, It kept on building. I had forms protruding from different spots on me. It was comfortable. I felt being nourished. And as the time passed, my form grew. I was getting nourished from a thin tube. Its been almost an year it feels and my form is much more defined now and I can also move it.

                Ouch... something is pushing me towards itself. Maybe I’ll finally get to see God. Am finally out into the light. He’s wearing something white and there’s so much light suddenly. Ouch… someone hit me!
Looks like some sermon, but I don’t understand thing they’re saying. They’re now wrapping me in a softness. Someone touched, and it feels as if I know. I can’t make out but she seems like God. She took me in her arms & kissed me. 

Marriage+History+Gods & Now

   When can you say to yourself that you’re married! A few many say it’s not until that two people actually have sex that they are considered married. If that is indeed the case then what are the ceremonies for?

   Some of the many things that we follow hardly make a logical explanation. The world was practically nude at some point of time for sure and that time was sure to be our animal instincts on a high. So didn’t they have companions back then or just bastards were born or maybe they were casual about it. The concept of Draupadi, wife to Pandavas, is no surprise in this scenario.  If so called God can be okay with something like that and have over 1 lakh lovers himself, why do we have to bear with the society.  You actually worship him and who says a person who has about 1 lakh girlfriends can’t be wise. I’d say he would be exceptionally wise! The thing is that people worship for their benefits and wishes to come true so in that scenario upsetting Gods is not good isn’t it!

Christianity and a sect of the people from them were deities to the nature form of god did sex within a ceremony with people enchanting hymns. What could that mean? It’s a way of worshipping only? Or maybe the saints found a way to satisfy their pleasures in the name of holy ceremony. More about the Hindu mythology is absurd. The facts like wind, water and sun cannot bear sons or daughters; it was stupid of women to believe that going to the ashrams for doing so would do any good. And when the child was born, he was given the name like pawan-putra etc.  Thus indirect mentions of how the knowledge was used back then as means to fulfill different needs as even today are made now and then in the scriptures. People tend to ignore them but maybe they are not to be ignored. Maybe the writer had no other way to write them and so he did write in an indirect form or else the king might have got him killed. Power and knowledge have always fought, power won but knowledge still survived and still does. The logic of marrying in castes and religions 'only' is unacceptable again. How many 'dasis' the kings used to have. Ever thought that 'kamasutra' took off from India. Still people project all that as holy..Damn you! Keep a limit to being funny man!! Ram seemed so wise and still let Sita into the fire.
Its has become iconic since then that husbands hardly care. There are many western stories we're not aware of still but they're moving back to history fast (<some other day).

   So moving back to marriage, what kind of marriage is it considered to be when a groom sent her wife to the saints to conceive child. The trend seems to be coming back now. With the sperm bank open, what is to get married? Will women actually get married in near future? They can conceive a child anyway and gets a handsome pay! Have marriages been limited to being together to support each other? Are they becoming materialistic? All say you do the job and then meet for a brief time drained of energy to have a healthy conversation. What becomes of such relationship without a huge amount of patience and perseverance?  No wonder divorces are rampant and cold. Can’t really track how the ceremonies evolved to become what they are today but these are one of the things that actually help marriages to be held together. Newer forms are surely coming up like Live-In relationships but these are not acceptable to the Indian psyche for a long-term basis. There are values embedded in us which come into play in our thoughts and actions and so we still live in history and only part in the present!

*The text is not meant to hurt anyone's sentiments. These are my own views on some issues and would take the liability alone to have said them. These are not to be taken towards any religion or any sect.
The thoughts have been taken from psyche of the people.

Enjoyment!

 From our busy lives, we look upon the individual aspects of our growth relating them to the development in our character. In India, it is a competition right from when you are born.


In the early years, you are adored with colorful clothes, boys being worn skirts to look cute and girls being given boy cuts for the same. Back then we don't bother about all these stuff. The 'Id' is in work at that time. Before 'ego' builds up, life seems pretty simple. We play like we don't care for anything at all. Going from one person to other, doing mischief with them. Being happy and making others happy the easiest task back then. Say anything and the people are amazed and start laughing for the very reason that you said something. They laugh on any movements your hands make while dancing. Just seeing you enjoy makes them happy. What a wonderful life.


ALAS! It stops soon.


But more than the other reason of the society and other aspects that start coming in our lives at that time, it is we who forget ourselves. And yes, some of us stop enjoying! That is really off the track and not called for. Life is beautiful when you are happy. The others around you feel your vibes and they will be happy even as they see you coming. Your life can be way different if you start being happy. Make pranks about situations, about yourself and construct scenarios of imaginative people in your stories. Never mind if you think your sense of humour is weak. It can always be get strong. Taking small things to your heart will surely ruin your life, no one else's.

So if you loved the way you were as a child and wish that everyone would be the same, you don't want to grow old, let that child always remain alive inside you for ever.

Expectations

As of now, am in college. Being in a University, I get to meet a lot of people. Networking is something that exists here. And thats very obvious that one can have multiple groups that one works with, stays with and many more. You have those friends that are close to you with whom you share almost everything about your life and there are people with whom you are colleagues in a club or community. At every level, there's a different level of personal attention and differences in motives of being in that group.

You spend with your friends to take all your negativity out. They can say whatever they want. Its doesn't pinch you. While with the others, there's a limitation. They would stay out of your personal circle and even you'll try that they do. Too many people in the personal circle are not okay with any person.

But with all the people around you, you are bound with expectations. Living a free life is difficult here. Even though we are a free democratic country, people are bound. In our first stage of development that is school, we are bound by our parent's and teacher's expectations. Then as we move on onto our path, more of the people are added in the 'expectees' list of our life's people directory. As we move on to University/College, we begin to see that an entire nation expects from us. Most of us fail to cater to that extent, but still wherever we work, we get to know some more people who really expect from you and they'll pay you for fulfilling those expectations. Some pay for work and give bonus for fulfilling those expectations, some just get a certificate of Appreciation, and the rest a 'good work' compliment. Well, these are small magnitude emotions.

The most difficult ones are the personal ones. Because unfulfilled expectations in personal relations leads to some difficult complexities. One is unable to overcome such complexities because these keep budging your mind and don't let you come out of it. The result is never directly associated to expectations. So its hard to do the reverse algorithm for most people to know that this was the cause. We've seen increasing number of divorces, nucleated families, more liberal teens, change of friend's group to mention the few.

If you can overcome your expectations, see the other person as an individual and respect their individuality, there never would have been a requirement to get parted from loved ones and you can enjoy every moment with them all your life. Expectation is the sole reason that could throw them out of your life. Having expectations is natural, but when you love someone, you accept them. And when acceptance is there, there is no place for expectations.